Take a moment everyday just to look back at things that have been done.
Ask yourself how can it be improved or done better Cause everyday memories are buried once the clock strike twelve
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NAME: Quek Ping Kiang Jonathan
AGE: 20+
STATUS:Single/Attached
Went to had my tooth extracted yesterday and i know its kind of silly to do this one day before reunion dinner but i guessed i had no choice cause i dun wanna drag it any longer. I waited for my turn for almost an hour lor and honestly i was freaking out while waiting for my turn.
I went in then the dentist ask me if i am sure i wanna extract it cause if i do then there will be a hole le, i told her i no choice cause root canal and crowning seriously cost a bomb man. So i lied there and she injected me first, she did not pluck my tooth immediately but help me did filling for one of the molar first and the remaining i need to go back on the 6th. The process was not painful lor but after the numbness go away ah i still can tahan a bit. I stain my pillow with my blood and i am so sorry to mummy cause she have to wash it for me.
Today have reunion dinner at home, we all had steamboat and i cannot enjoy the piping hot food cause of my extraction so all i can do is to take the food and put in my bowl let it cool before i can eat lor =( mummy say she wanna go walk walk after dinner de but then after i bath and stuff she told me we don't go out le k? Tomorrow morning then we go eat Mac before you go back camp. LOL nevermind i know that she is tired after preparing dinner.
GONG XI FA CAI~
8:54 PM
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
You guys ask me why i smoke, why i do this and why i do that and all i say was nothing or purely stress. Who really understand me? I had friends from many walk of life and each having their own problems, I blame no one for not being able to understand me cause i got no one to blame but myself.
I can be the clown and even the laughing stock of the whole group. I don't mind being treated like a fool just to see you guys smile and forget bout all your troubles but when i met with problems and i can no longer make you guys laugh and i still your friend?
Misunderstanding ended this friendship? I explained myself but you just gave your attitude, i know you been thru alot of hardship and so do i. Did you hear me out? Who really understand, who really care?
I know people will sure its me who is not opening up but have you have this before? Where you open up so much to someone and he/she just stab your right in the heart so hard. Everyone go thru up and downs, i have my own too but i don't know how to put it across cause i had a very ugly past. If i open up who can really say i will still be your friend. Only a handful can.
Let me be alone and i know i be fine soon. If one day i am gone who even notice?